As I sit here writing this, 18 hours away from what will surely be the most important moment in my life, I can’t help but reflect on the last 18 months, and wonder where I would be without her. What if she hadn’t come into Best Buy looking for a movie I had never heard of, one spring day in 2009?

Without the woman who loves me for me. Without the woman who has put up with more of my crap in the last year and a half, than any one person should have to endure over the course of their entire lives. She certainly has been blessed with more patience than any one person should be given.

Without the woman who can see through my bullshit, and still have it in her heart to care for me, and love me unconditionally. I know I can be a difficult person to live with and be around, and for once, I have found someone who is willing to work through it all, knowing that the end result is worth it.

Without the woman who is smarter than me. There, yes I said it. I am with a woman who owns me in the intelligence department. (Now if I could just find it within myself to not argue with here and simply admit that she is right, I may make things a lot easier for myself)

Without the woman who to this day, can bring a smile to my face that makes my soul warm. That smile can light up a room. The woman who has the biggest heart of anyone I have ever met. The woman, who is driven for success, has an infectious laugh. The woman who would do anything for anyone and is the most caring individual I have met.

I am lucky to know Kim Hubbard. I am even luckier to be loved by a woman as incredible as Kim. As a general rule, the world would be a better place tenfold, if everyone had the chance to know even a fraction of what I know of Kim Hubbard. You can’t argue that, its science.

Our relationship has been going strong for the last 18 months; but believe me it has been far from perfect. Hell, at times, it has been pretty bad. We have had our fair share of ups and downs, and that is okay. I feel that to have a truly strong relationship that is built you last, you need a bit of the hard times to help you keep things in perspective. To live in a land that is rid of hard times, arguments & disagreements is to live in a land of chaos and false expectations.

I once read a quote that said

“Being happy doesn’t mean everything’s perfect. It means you’ve decided to see beyond the imperfections!”

Imperfections are certainly something I am not short on, and I certainly have more than Kim does. But all in all, we have made it work. We have found happiness. Though sometimes the level of said happiness fluctuates, it is still there, keeping our love alive.

Tomorrow at 7:30am, the next chapter of our lives begins to take shape. We will, for the first time, see our child—on the computer screen anyway. Our early morning appointment for our first ultrasound has worked me into an excitement that I have never felt. I have dreamed of it, night after night for the last two weeks. It is constantly on my mind.

I have said for as long as I can remember that my biggest goal in life is to become a great father, and raise children who do the right thing by others. Children raised to have patience and understanding. I have always dreamed that my children will be wise beyond their years, and intelligent enough to make the right choices with their lives. Children who grow up to have a clear vision of right and wrong. Children who contribute to society in a positive manner. Children who can see the good in people, and try to make a difference in the lives of others. Children who have a big, warm heart that love to laugh and smile and enjoy live.

Sounds like the perfect child. It is a big order to fulfill, and it is something that I know I cannot tackle on my own. Good news for me, ever since I found my happiness 18 months ago, I found the person who I know can help me achieve my goal, of having children who are amazing in every way shape and form. Who are everything I have dreamed they will be.

I love you Kim, thank you for your continued patience, dedication and love. I am excited as ever to face the rest of my life with you.